| Location | Dalton,ga |
| Age | 16 years |
| Cause of Death | Suicide |
| Date of Birth | 07/09/1984 |
| Date of Death | 13/04/2001 |
| Visitors | 11,194 since 13/10/2008 |
| Creator |
My son,my only child died by his own hands on 4 13 01.
Tim I love and miss you more than words can say.
You were my whole world,my reason for living.
You not only took you life,you took my to.
My world ended.
As I drove through the cemetary this morning where my precious mom is buried.I could see so many
thing's in the fresh mound's of dirt. There's broken heart's and not just heart's that are broken
but shattered into a million pieces.Look closer and you can see them scattered over the fresh
mound's of dirt.Mixed with the pebbles and flower's is whats left of sumone heart. You see shattered
live's that will never be the same.You see emptiness and loniness.You see sumnone with nothing to
live for,just a fresh mound of dirt. You may see a baby or a young adult but you see beauty.You can
see memories and smiles.You feel the love that surrounds you as the wind twrils the leaves over the
fresh mounds of dirt. You can imagine a soul rising to be with God.Thru the tears and pain you see
happiness and you feel peace,you pray as you look at the fresh mound's of dirt.
I only got to keep him 16 years. He felt my pain even before he was born.He brought joy into my life
even before he was born.I wacthed my tummy move as this litttle 5lb person rolled around inside.He
had my heart and soul even before he was born.
He was my responability.I gave him all I could.When he died he took away all the little kicks and
turning in my tummy of 16 years ago.He took away all the nights we both cried alone,my son in my
arms as I rocked him.He took away the 10 little piggys that I rubbed loition on.He took all my
prayers.
He took his beautiful blue eyes and pretty smile.He took all of his tight hugs.He took my
grandbabies. He took his life and furture and he took my life and furture.I only had 1 child,a child
I can never replace.
I no longer have that part of me to love. He is gone forever.I have no more children to give my love
to,nor will I ever have.He was me,I was him and now WE are gone.
You clean his room,you go through his stuff, looking for a clue,just anything will do. You have to
settle for a box full of memories. Just a box is all you have left of your child. You have to accept
the fact that your son took his life.You relive your childs death and the last few seconds of his
life over and over.You feel your son's pain ,you walk in darkness.You have to make yourself
breath,make yourself live,but you pray to die. You pick out his casket,clothes and favorite song.
You rub his cold hands and you rub his hair. You wait for his eyes to open,but they never do. You
watch the casket close,being lowered into the ground.You fall apart. With every scoop of dirt you
feel your heart being torn out. Your eyes fill with tears,you scream. Once again you return home
without your child. You cant eat or sleep,your numb,a walking zombie,empty inside. You see other
young people doing what your child should be doing. You would gladly give your life to save the life
of your child. But you wouldnt want your child to feel the pain of living without you. They buried
my son's body but they buried my soul in that deep dark hole.
Tim Is IN Heaven
Do ya still have those side burns and that goatee that I loved so much to kiss? Is your hair still
blonde?Is it still long Tim?
What color are your wings?Are your clothes still baggy? Can you reach the highest star Tim? Do ya
still grunt when you awaken? Is "huh" still your favorite word?
Are there animals in Heaven,Tim? Do you see Butterball there? Do the starz glow at night? Are the
clouds fluffly,soft and white?
Do ya still wear boxers? Are your eyes still blue? How tall are ya now Tim? Do gurl'z think your
handsome? Do you give em all hug's? Do ya play for them Tim?
Don't Judge Me - by Unknown Author
Don't judge me for how I left this world,
Remember the love I gave,
A lot of grief will follow me
For the decision that I made.
Changes appear in everyone's life
Some good, some bad,
The one I chose for myself
Made everyone very sad.
But in time the memories will heal the hurt of hearts
And my presence will be felt by all with an inner peace.
Remember me when the sun is bright and laughter fills the air
And a moonlit night and a whisper of wind
Will tell you I am there.
Don't look down on my family
Or fill their hearts with blame
For my leaving them without good-byes
Has left them so much pain.
If I could go back in time
I would say a last good-bye
I would tell them to look to tomorrow
And for me, please do not cry.
Shine my Angel
♥~~~♥~~~♥~~~♥~~~♥~~~♥~~~♥~~~♥~~~♥~~~♥
Shine my Angel..
Shine down with love,
Shine through the clouds..
From the skies above.
♥~~~♥~~~♥~~~♥~~~♥~~~♥~~~♥~~~♥~~~♥~~~♥
Shine my Angel..
Just like the sun,
You will always be my precious one.
♥~~~♥~~~♥~~~♥~~~♥~~~♥~~~♥~~~♥~~~♥~~~♥
Shine my angel..
Like a bar of gold,
Oh how I wish you were here..
For me to hold.
♥~~~♥~~~♥~~~♥~~~♥~~~♥~~~♥~~~♥~~~♥~~~♥
Shine my Angel..
Night and day,
Keep shining my Angel..
In your own special way.
♥~~~♥~~~♥~~~♥~~~♥~~~♥~~~♥~~~♥~~~♥~~~♥
copyright� Jackie Thomas 09/07/09
☆•☆ A MESSAGE FROM YOUR ANGEL ☆•☆
♥ I'd Rather See You Smiling ♥
( Alan Pemberton)
You must not think that I have gone
Please don't grieve or pine
I'd rather see you smiling
Laughing - working - looking fine
Death is an exciting key
Which opens many doors
It leads us into other worlds
Quite similar to yours
Life is not an accident
Death is not the end
God designed a mystery
Life and death do blend
So do not think that I have gone
Please don't brood or pine
I'd rather see you smiling
Laughing - working - looking fine
☆•☆ A TENDER REPLY ☆•☆
♥ I Promise ♥
(Author Unknown)
I promise I won't cry forever
But I need to just today.
I promise I will remember
How to live and how to play.
I promise that I'll dry my tears
When the heartache goes away.
I promise that it won't take years
But I need another day.
I promise that I'll live my life
As you would want me to.
I promise when I'm facing strife
I'll face it straight and true.
I promise I will endeavour
To do the best I can each day.
I promise I won't cry forever
But I need to just today.
♥ A Shade of Sadness. ♥
In comes the darkness to my soul
even as I sit in the early morning sun,
the distant sounds of the living
seem far removed from the fogginess of my mind.
♥
In the stillness of the house
which seems quieter than quiet,
time seems to pass too slowly.
♥
A feeling of being outside myself
looking back into an empty shell
of the person I used to be.
♥
I cry for my former self.
That person I once liked and enjoyed.
She is gone.
A loss within a loss, within a loss.
♥
A heaviness in my heart,
the weight of a million tears.
Drowning my emotions,
mixing and swirling in a pool of despair.
Ugly hateful despair.
♥
A sadness so deep and heavy
leaving the body tired and used,
I feel I could sleep,
sleep for a thousand years and never wake up.
♥
A thousand years will not change a thing.
You would still not be here.
What to believe, I don't know.
I just don't know. My soul is lost.
♥
I know not which way to turn.
Where to look,
♥
I feel helpless,
helpless to help my self,
annoyed with the daily things of life I must do.
♥
I don't care, not anymore.
The world could fall upon it's knees
it would not matter,
I am too shrouded in the darkness of my world
that spins ever out of control,
directing my emotions
with no warning as to what feelings
will be brought upon me next.
♥
There is guilt, another weight to bear.
Those who are with me, who I love and love me,
they need me, but I am not ready.
I hold them back at arms length,
I am not ready,
their demands draw on what strength I have left.
For that I am sorry,
but I cannot help bringing on the emotional distance.
There is a need to protect myself,
but from what I am not sure.
♥
There is anger.
Anger that occasionally swells within me.
There is no direction into which to fling this anger.
It is a new and different type of anger
not one I am familiar with and it disturbs me.
It makes me afraid.
♥
I try to be strong. For you, and only you.
I try to think what you would have me do.
♥
I know you would want me to live my life.
To continue on. It is not an easy task, not at all.
♥
Some days I can go out
and meet the world with vigor and say I do this for you.
♥
Some days I must crawl into my shell
and hide from the world that has been so cruel to me.
I am trying.
♥
The days are filled with thoughts of you,
and should I find myself not thinking of you,
I gasp for fear that I am forgetting you.
♥
I have learned to value life, you have taught me this.
To see the beauty in each day given to me,
even through this veil of sad darkness.
I know it is there waiting for me.
♥
Someday the sadness will lift
and I will only think of you
with a smile and warmness in my heart.
My love for you will always be there
that shall never pass
and I hope somehow you know this too.
♥
Your memory is only a heartbeat away.
I shall always love,
I shall always long for you,
I shall always wish to have you back.
And I shall live -- if only for you.
♥
WITH ALL MY LOVE, I WILL BE GONE FOR 2 WEEKS,ANTHONY'S GIRLFRIEND IS COMING TO VISIT ME, TILL JULY 24. TILL THEN ALL OUR BEAUTIFUL ANGELS WILL BE IN MY THOUGHTS AND PRAYERS. LOVE GLORIA ANTHONY'S MOM XOXO
LOVE LINGERS...........
LOVE LINGERS IN MY HEART EACH DAY
MY BEAUTIFUL ANGEL WHY DID YOU GO AWAY
YOU WERE SO WANTED AND LOVED BY ME
MY HEART REMAINS BROKEN IT WILL ALWAYS BE
LOVE LINGERS IN EACH DREAM OF YOU
MY BEAUTIFUL ANGEL I LOVE YOU TOO
MANY TIMES THE TEARS I CRY EACH DAY
THEY ARE ALWAYS WITH ME THEY ARE HERE TO STAY
LOVE LINGERS AND LOVE LIVES ON
EVEN WHEN YOU SEEM TO HAVE GONE
FOR YOU ARE ONLY RESTING IN HEAVEN NOW
WE WILL MEET AGAIN ONE DAY SOON SOME HOW........
copyright Rosalind Roberts
xxxxx
MOTHER AND CHILDS BOND
The Cord
We are connected, my child and I,
by an invisible cord not seen by the eye.
It's not like the cord that connected us 'till birth,
this cord can't be seen by anyone on earth.
This cord does its work, right from the start,
it bonds us together, attached at the heart.
I know that its there though no one can see,
the invisible cord, from my child to me.
The strength of this cord, it's hard to describe.
it can't be destroyed, it can't be denied.
It's stronger than any cord, man could create,
it withstands the tests, can hold any weight.
And though you are gone, not here with me,
the cord is still there, but no one can see.
It pulls at my heart, I am bruised....I am sore,
but this cord is my lifeline, as never before.
I am thankful that God connected this way,
a mother and a child, death can't take it away!
All my Love. Have a wonderful weekend. Love Gloria Anthony's Mom xoxo
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The years will fall like autumn leaves upon his memory.
The touch of Time will ease the heartache, gently, tenderly...
It cannot always be like this; the agony will cease.
And I, resigned, shall find at last - my healing and my peace.
There comes a time when grief must end and sorrow pass away.
Never will he be forgotten - but there'll come a day -
when I shall remember him without a stab of pain -
happy in the secret knowledge that we'll meet again.
(Patience Strong)
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TIM
This day will be a celebration
of the short time you were here.
You will always be remembered
with great love and many tears.
But to only feel pain and sorrow
would not be fair to you.
Your life meant so much more to us,
more than words could say.
You were here so briefly,
I wonder if you knew
all the ways you’ve touched
our world and our hearts
and everyone who knew you
since the day God called you home.
Now my child, you’re an angel
with your heavenly Father above,
we see not only what we’ve lost
but our capacity of love.
There will always be a big void
in our life and a hole in our
hearts that will never heal.
Our souls will grieve forever.
Will we forget or stop loving you?
No! Not now…not ever.
As this day is upon us,
oh, how our hearts still hurt.
But even as I mourn your death,
we will always celebrate your birth.
It was the happiest day of our lives.
════╔══╗gone but
════║══║not forgotten
═╔══╝══╚══╗xoxoxoxo
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All my Love Gloria Anthony's Mom
Have a nice weekend xoxo
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I LEAVE THESE FOOTPRINTS TO SHOW I'VE BEEN
NITE NITE
SWEET DREAMS
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`•. Dear Angel........
If we could only speak to you,
And hold your loving hand,
No matter what we said or did,
We know you'd understand.
Memory is a lovely lane,
Where hearts are ever true,
A lane we so often travel down,
Because it leads to you.
Sadly missed along life's way,
Quietly remembered every day,
No longer in our lives to share,
But in our hearts you're always there.
Your presence we miss,
Your memory we treasure,
Loving you always,
Forgetting you never.
All Our Love Now And Always
copywrite sam winson 2007
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